I'll Grow Up Tomorrow
A friend from the past just called. The conversation was short, rushed and awkward. The call ended, and I can't describe how relieved I felt. Thirty seconds later, a second call came in. I almost fell off my chair. I wanted to throw my phone out of the window and scream, knowing what's coming -- that we should meet up. 1) I can pretend that I don't see the call and put the phone on silent mode, never picking it up again -- which is stupid. 2) I can pick it up, knowing that I'm weak and will never be able to say no. We'll meet up, and I'll suffer in silent misery. 3) I can pretend that I'm... not well and can only meet up, say... three years from now? I'm not sure which is more stupid. The first one or this one? 4) I can be firm and say no. Can I? Please. I would have more courage to burn my favourite dress than say no for no reason. Two favourite dresses.